I can’t fucking do this any more. I can’t. I don’t know if I’m just fucking slow or if I have shitty art directors who expect too much in too little time but I can’t fucking be an illustrator any more. Yup. I’m quitting. Two years of this bullshit and I can’t deal with it any more. I fucked up my garden and now pretty much everything out there is dying, I’ve got two major deadlines to meet before the end of the month, and I can’t fucking do this shit anymore.
This is one of nine illustrations. Nine illustrations which are due in three days. Nine illustrations, of which this ONE is really anywhere near finished.
HOLY FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU—
Thankfully this one (I hope) will have been the most demanding because of all the FLIPPING FACES I had to paint (20), but I seriously don’t know how I’m going to meet this deadline.
I’m doing some paintings for educational materials; they’re going to be printed at 19 inches by 13.5 inches. (Yes, you read that right, inches) The photoshop files are 300 dpi and in CMYK And the largest file right now is 413 MB, the smallest being around 200MB. Am I doing something wrong? Or is this normal?
Virtually every time I watch “My Neighbor Totoro” or look through screen caps, I notice something new. EVERY. TIME. I know I’m biased when I say it, but I still believe that that film is pretty much near perfect in every way.
Just a little thing for an “animation” (read as: still images set to a soundtrack, compiled in flash) I’m doing. Man I’m glad these animals appear, like, three more times in the story, this took forever to draw.
>Agree, offer to bring food too, he says he’ll take care of it, okay, cool
>Hang up
>Realize I didn’t mention my massive amounts of food allergies
>Feel like a douche
>Send text apologizing for having food allergies, say I’ll bring my own food
>Feel like an asshole
Seriously, I don’t know how to not be afraid of people getting pissed at me for having food allergies. I realize it’s stupid, and I can’t help that I have allergies, but I’ve had so many people get mad at me for it now I just expect the abuse. Since this guy is a science teacher, hopefully he’ll understand?
Two weeks after installing the colony I opened it up for inspection and this is what I found! Plenty of brood (from larva to pupa; visible in the third photo), new comb being built, old comb being repaired, bee bread (pollen mixed with nectar which is then fermented), and lots of nectar being turned into honey. In other words I am very pleased.
I pulled out each top bar for just a quick glancing over, and used minimal smoke, so hopefully they can recover from the intrusion quickly and get back to their bee-lives.
Despite how well they are doing I am going to keep feeding them with a sugar syrup/dilute honey mixture because while there are a lot of blossoms around here now, it gets hot and dry quick in Utah. I also want them to be able to build plenty of comb to keep up with their brooding and honey storage needs. In my experience, if they don’t want additional feeding, they won’t take it.
Installing the new package of bees, April 20th 2013
I’m sorry I haven’t been keeping y’alls up to date on my bees, my first year in beekeeping was very emotionally taxing and it got to the point where just thinking about my bees made me really really sad.
The 2012 hive died due to drought, predation by wasps, and a long, cold winter with no warm breaks whatsoever, not to mention inevitable first-timer mistakes by me. When I opened the hive in January to check on them there must have been less than 1,000 bees in there, and they were all dead. As mentioned in this video, that package (3 lbs) was about 10,000 bees, so you can see how 1,000 bees isn’t a lot. I strongly suspect the queen died/was killed sometime in the late summer or fall. I’m a little less emotionally attached this time, but I have learned a lot of good lessons from my first year in beekeeping, so I hope to do right by this colony. Here’s hoping for a better year: less mistakes and better weather.
Again, many many thanks to the people who have voted and got the word out by reblogging. Y’all are awesome, and good luck to the other Tumblr folks who submitted designs as well! I’m hoping they pick some really rad shirt designs I have get to blow money on X)